I had to take a walk today. I had to get out of my office and soak in the sun and rid myself of some of the ugliness that had been clawing at my soul.
The last few weeks have been bad. Not because everything has gone wrong and life has been topsy-turvy, but in soul-killing ways. I’ve been dealing with too many people who simply aren’t nice and it was making me physically tired. Like, I-want-to-sleep-to-not-deal-with-people tired.
The “everydayness” of the pettiness and meanness and slights were taking a toll. No matter how well I let things “roll off my back,” when the assaults are hard, fast, and consistent, tiny slights feel like boulders. They aren’t so easy to roll away. They just sort of pile up and impede my ability to “move on” or not take things “to heart.”
I found it difficult to shake the mood that was gripping me and dragging me to a dark, dark place. I had to do something, so I “escaped” for a bit.
I didn’t take my camera. I didn’t plan to take photos. (I had my phone with me out of habit and for security). I just needed to walk and talk with God for a moment. I needed him to “right” my perspective and reset my mood. I needed him to expel from my spirit the foulness that was intent on sullying my soul.
After a few steps, I looked up.
The trees were communing and basking in the warmth of this so-called winter and playing against the clear blue sky.
I took a deep, cleansing breath.
I allowed God’s Spirit to bathe me and exorcise the yuckiness.
And fill me with good things–things that are lovely, pure, right, and true.
I’m light and airy and my gratitude is floating in the wind, dancing with the trees.