Sadly, the only cure for grief is to grieve. —Mark Lemon
This was spring break week for our university. Thankfully. I desperately needed time to “just be” and sit with my grief.
I needed to sleep as much as my body would allow. I needed to escape the usual colors and sounds of life because at the moment everything seems too bright and too loud. I needed to take one-day-at-a-time and not bear the weight of grief through meetings, planning, students, and other interactions. I needed to call my mom in the middle of the day just to hear her voice. I needed to clear my desk and shoot a million photos of the sunflowers friends delivered along with gift cards to Olive Garden because no one feels like cooking or even deciding on a menu. I needed to draw sunflowers and tweak the poem I wrote about my dad five days before he passed. I needed to move through my day without purpose. I needed to feel safe in my grief and not feel the need to excuse myself or apologize for being inattentive or not completely present. I needed to look through family pictures and savor the memories. I needed to listen to the same Daryl Coley song over and over and over and over because it is the only song that soothes my soul right now. I needed to sit in silence with God and be filled by His presence.
I needed to seek light…in my own ways.
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Sending positive thoughts, Chandra Lynn. Gary
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Chandra, how I feel for you and understand. You write so beautifully about a grief many of us know. You are right, you need time in peace, time to be with the people who were and always will be precious to you. It is vital. So take your time and know loved ones will always live within your soul.
Miriam
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Thank you, Miriam, for dropping in and sharing a bit of your own light. Hugs…
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i hope you are able to do those things. I am holding you in my heart. Rest and know everyone can wait, you are deserving. Hugs
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Thanks for your hugs and encouragement, Christine. I’m back at work, so whew…we’ll see how this goes.
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I’m so glad that you had the time you needed to do nothing
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I could use an extra day or two. 🙂
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I can always use an extra day at the end of vacation or long weekend too!
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Thank you for sharing!!… it takes time for the heart to heal and there is more to life than WordPress… and all that you hold dear will remain in your heart forever… 🙂
A Letter From Heaven
When tomorrow starts without me
And I’m not here to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
Filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things
We didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me
As much as I love you,
And each time you think of me
I know you’ll miss me too.
When tomorrow starts without me
Don’t think we’re far apart,
For every time you think of me
I’m right there in your heart.
(Alena Hakala Meadows)
Until we meet again….
May flowers always line your path
and sunshine light your way,
May songbirds serenade your
every step along the way,
May a rainbow run beside you
in a sky that’s always blue,
And may happiness fill your heart
each day your whole life through.
(Irish Saying)
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Yes, time, time, and more time. Thank you for your kind words and the poems…
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Prayed for you my friend. There is no perfect way to grieve. Grieving is different for each person as is processing. I am glad you have been blessed by others and by God.
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Agreed–no perfect way to grieve. It’s just a messy process, no matter what! Thank you for your prayers. I feel the prayers working.
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So sorry to hear of your sadness. Give yourself time.
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Doing my best, but those pesky things life demands (like work) won’t let me.
Thank you for dropping in and sharing a bit of comfort.
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Your welcome x
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Hugs from Arizona. 🙂 xoxox
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